My favorite Christmas song

The words and music to the Christmas song Little Drummer Boy was composed by Katherine K. Davis, Henry Onorati and Harry Simeone in 1958. The lyrics of Little Drummer Boy consist of no less than 21 rum pum pum pum' - a major part of the song and therefore presenting an apparently easy task for the lyricist! However, Little Drummer Boy has been a huge hit for several artists. The most notable rendition was created by the most unlikely combination of Bing Crosby and David Bowie. This version of Little Drummer Boy was a massive hot for the artists and was in fact Bing Crosby's most successful recording since the legendary White Christmas.

Little Drummer Boy: Lyrics

Come they told me, pa rum pum pum pum
A new born King to see, pa rum pum pum pum
Our finest gifts we bring, pa rum pum pum pum
To lay before the King, pa rum pum pum pum,
rum pum pum pum, rum pum pum pum,

So to honor Him, pa rum pum pum pum,
When we come.

Little Baby, pa rum pum pum pum
I am a poor boy too, pa rum pum pum pum
I have no gift to bring, pa rum pum pum pum
That's fit to give the King, pa rum pum pum pum,
rum pum pum pum, rum pum pum pum,

Shall I play for you, pa rum pum pum pum,
On my drum?

Mary nodded, pa rum pum pum pum
The ox and lamb kept time, pa rum pum pum pum
I played my drum for Him, pa rum pum pum pum
I played my best for Him, pa rum pum pum pum,
rum pum pum pum, rum pum pum pum,

Then He smiled at me, pa rum pum pum pum
Me and my drum.

As long as I can remember, this story and song has been my favorite Christmas story. When I hear the story, I always get teary eyed and emotional. The story tugs at my heart strings because the poor little boy comes across a new baby king. He feels inadequate and unworthy to be before the young king, but he decides that all he can give is part of himself by playing his drum for the king. It was this gift among the gold, silver and precious gifts that the king recognizes with a smile.
The song reminds me that no matter how unworthy I am to have a savior, if I give myself to Him and try my best to keep his commandments, then I can be pleasing to my Savior.

Holidays

The holidays, mainly Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years are a time that most people look forward to. For the past few years, I have not. I have dreaded the coming of these days with bitterness and fear knowing that I would probably feel disappointment and a longing for something unknown.

This year is different. I have a peace this year and feel a happiness that I haven't felt in years. I already have our tree up. Brandon picked it out and decorated it. I think it is the most beautiful tree I have ever seen. I have already finished my shopping and was excited about wrapping the presents and getting them under the tree. Our little apartment is meagerly decorated but definitely has that festive feeling when you walk inside. I am looking forward to going to parties and having fun with friends instead of sitting at home feeling all alone.

I have seen many changes in my life in the past two years. I have bittersweet feelings about some of the changes but I can see life flourishing in myself and in my son. A lightness and easy going feeling has come to both of us as we move forward in our lives.

I have many friends that have helped me through some terrible times and often find myself in tears as I realize how thankful I am for the hands and shoulders that have carried me through. My wonderful friend Dan who has stood by me faithfully and been a rock and foundation for me to stay above the troubled water's waves. My sisters Diane and Shirley that have not pressed me for anything but have shown unconditional love for me and Brandon. My brother, Jeff, who has done the same. All of which have never judged but have all been a great support. My parents who have taken me under their wings and shielded me from harm and given support like no one else can do.

I am a blessed person and I thank God for all my friends and family every day. I am finally able to love life again and with God's help I hope I will encourage others to find joy not only in the holidays but also in each and every day that we are blessed with.

Out of Breath

The other day we passed a house that had about 10 of those big inflatable christmas decorations in the front yard. Brandon looked for a moment and said,

"Wow, I bet they are out of breath."

Brandon's candid moments

I have always said that Brandon's candidness with strangers is one day going to get me, him, or both of us killed. I thought that moment was going to happen yesterday while we were out shopping.Brandon needed some new shoes so we went to Famous Footwear to pick some up.

Of course it was busy since it was the day after Thanksgiving, but he needed shoes and I knew there would be some sales. We finally picked out shoes that we could both be happy with and went to check out. The line was really long because there was only one register open. One of the ladies in front of us had on a Barack Obama T-shirt. I didn't even notice, but Brandon did. He took the opportunity to strike up a conversation. "Hi," he said, "you like Barack Obama?" She said, "yes." "Well you know he isn't good and McCain is better" he continues. At this point, I notice her shirt and tell Brandon that in America it is ok for people to have their own opinions. I was hoping that would be the end of it. "Look, on your shirt ma'am, Obama won't wear a flag. That is bad" he explains.At this point the woman is getting irritated. And just for a little more emphasis Brandon tells her, "You should have voted for McCain."Now I am wanting to run out of the store. But I notice a distraction to try to redirect Brandon. A tiny baby behind us. Thank goodness it worked.

When we got in the car I explained to Brandon that we don't need to talk about politics in public with stangers. He said "well she had on the shirt." And I told him yes she did but it didn't mean you had to comment on it.I thought Brandon is smart for bringing up the fact that she had the t-shirt on. If you are going to wear something of that nature, you should be ready for people to like or dislike your display. I just think the woman didn't like being lectured by a little white boy.

Be Thankful

**I snagged this from our church bulletin**

Be thankful that you don't already have everything you desire.
If you did, what would there be to look forward to?

Be thankful when you don't know something,
for it gives you the opportunity to learn.

Be thankful for the difficult times.
During those times you grow.

Be thankful for your limitations,
because they give you opportunities for improvement.

Be thankful for each new challenge,
because it will build your strength and character.

Be thankful for your mistakes.
They will teach you valuable lessons.

Be thankful when you are tired and weary,
because it means you have made a difference.

It is easy to be thankful for the good things. A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who are also thankful for the setbacks. Gratitude can turn a negative into a positive. Find a way to be thankful for your troubles, and they can become your blessings. (author unknown)

Mammoth Cave

Brandon and I had a great time this weekend. We travelled to Byrdstown, TN on Saturday morning and met Dan there. We were able to keep Dan a secret from Brandon and he was very excited to see Dan.

As soon as we got there, we had to meet up with my parents, brother and his two sons. We ate some good ole country cooking at The Bobcat Den. After a very filling lunch we went over to visit my Granddad. He is in a nursing home for rehabilitation after a bad bit of sickness. He was with the physical therapist when we got there. In order to get him to work out, we had to join in with the exercise. Brandon at one point told Grandpa that he would put him in time out if he didn't do his exercise. Grandpa replied, "Good I will take a 10 hour time out." The PT asked him why he was here if the grandkids were going to do all the work. He replied "That's what I wanna know."

That evening we went down to the Dixie where we took in some more good country food and some live bluegrass music. Sierra Hull and her brother sang and played for us. Brandon enjoyed it so much that we had to buy the CD before we left.

The next morning we got up early and headed for Cave City, KY. We headed to Mammoth Cave and got ready for a 4 mile hike through the cave. We were able to see some beautiful gypsum formations, some amazing canyons, and incredible stalagmites and stalagtites. Brandon was amazed that we were actually INSIDE the earth. He was able to ask many questions to the ranger and he had a great time. He did get worried when he found out that they were going to turn the lights out on us.

We finally made it through the cave tour and headed back to the hotel. There was a indoor heated pool. It wasn't heated enough for me but Brandon loved it. We hadn't been there long before 2 more boys that were on the same tour with us showed up at the pool. The boys played so well together. Dan and I were able to play some UNO while they swimmed.

The next morning we had to head home in the rain. :( But we had a great time hanging out and seeing some incredible natural wonders.

A long drive with Brandon

Time in the car is usually a great time to find out what is going on in Brandon's head. The trip to Tennessee this weekend was fairly quiet. But the closer we got to our destination they more chatty Brandon got.

We were driving past a large area that had recently been plowed. Brandon took in the sight and then explained to me that "Apparently, they are about to build a house." Now if that is the case, I would LOVE to see a house that big.

Then he was reading his Pepsi bottle. "Mom, Did you know there are 250 calories in this drink? No wonder Granddad is so hyper all the time."

Why I teach

Today I assigned a writing assignment. I used the Thanksgiving holiday as stimulus for the kids to write using many different ideas. Here are some of the responses from the assignment.

People that are important in my life:

Mrs. Carroll (a fellow teacher of mine) because she takes care of us and helps us with our math work and lets us write on the smart board.

Mrs. Ball (another teacher) because I can talk to her when I got a problem.

Ms. Kreismanis because she is nice and sweet and gives you candy and does fun things and lets us watch movies.

This year I am most thankful for...
My mom because she brought me through my problems.
for trying out a regular class

When I think about Thanksgiving I think about...
sharing and give to the homeless and I think of my family for helping me through my problems.
spending time with my family.


No matter how difficult each of these kids can be at times, they have sweet innocent hearts and if we look hard enough we can see the beauty in each one.

YUM!!!!!

I am going to watch this beautiful man on the big screen tonight!! I can't wait!!! Swoons!!

HUBBA HUBBA

another drive conversation

The other day as we drove home from school Brandon compared himself to a monkey.

"You know mom, I am a lot like a monkey. I like to jump. I like to run and make noise. I like to climb trees. I guess God made us a little like monkies. But I sure am glad he didn't make me like to eat other monkey's fleas!"

I am glad too!!! :)

a pondering

This morning on the way to work I was listening to the news. There was a story that caught my attention. An adult male was having a inappropriate sexual relationship with an underage female relative.
Now, I would like to know if there is an appropriate sexual relationship you can have with an underage female relative?

Just something to think about.

Week 13 and 14

Week 13 I actually gained .4 pounds. It was kinda expected with stresses and craziness in my week.

Week 14 weigh in was today and I lost 2 pounds woot!!!!!

yay 14 pounds total!!!!

Morning Drive

This morning on our drive to school, Brandon and I had an interesting conservation. He was thinking about his birth-mother and why he came to live in a new family. He remembers some about his birth mother but not many details. He asked me if she was mean to him. I told him the truth to the best of my knowledge. As far as I know she never physically abused him. I told him that his mother was doing drugs and wasn't able to take care of him the way he needed. His mouth dropped open and he said " She was smoking?" I told him yes, but she was also doing other kinds of drugs that are really bad for you and make you do things you shouldn't.

"Oh, you mean like chocolate!"

In his sweet little innocent mind, chocolate is a drug that makes you hyper and do things you shouldn't. How adorable is that?

why is it....

that I can't do laundry, fold it, and put it away before this happens. Isn't she cute!!!! Just wish she wasn't on my clean folded laundry!!! :)

week 12

Well week 12 has come and gone. I have lost the one pound that I gained last week so I am back on track!

12 pounds and counting :)

week 11

After a stressful week and giving in to a strong desire to eat at long john silvers. I gained a pound during the week.

Oh well, it happens, back to the grindstone this week.

Total weight lost - 11 pounds.

Just a little mistake

The other day Brandon was being a good big cousin and reading to little 2 year old Eliza. Eliza had just gotten some new Little Golden books and she was eager to hear a new story. So, Brandon grabbed a new book and started reading. Of course like a good book reader he read the title first "101 Damnations Christmas" of something similar to that. I giggled just a little. Granddad and Grandmom noticed but Brandon just kept reading and Eliza just kept listening. Each time he read "dalmations" it came out "damnation."

You know some things are just too cute to correct!!!!

Karate chop

Brandon had his first graduation for karate this weekend. He was SO excited about it. He called his Aunt Diane and Grandmom and invited them to come. Aunt Diane had to work but Grandmom made it to the graduation ceremony. The kids were able to show off some of their skills. The teachers also did some showing off which gets the kids really excited. The owners son then gave a demonstration of some of his skills. He is about 12 or 13 and is a black belt. He used to travel to tournaments all over the US and was actually number 3 in the world in his class. He broke his collar bone pretty badly and that has put a slow down on his travels but he still practices every day. The things that boy can do are just amazing.

Finally the kids were all asked to sit down in order of rank and they started giving out the new belts. When Brandon got his he turned around with his arms in the air like a victor. I am so proud of him!!!

Week 10

I had a VERY stressful week and I reallly thought I would either gain some weight or atleast hopefully maintain. I am very happy to say that I lost 1.6 pounds this week!!!! WOOT!!!!

That brings me to a total of 12.6 pounds!!!!!!

YAY ME!!!!!

Life's little reminders...

that I have a little boy:

I open the washing machine and find feathers.

I turn on the dryer to hear rocks clanging inside.

I go into the bathroom after his bath to find a puddled floor.

I find his little clothes BESIDE the laundry hamper.

I have a vase full of dried dandelions that he has brought me.

I have a procedure for taking off his tennis shoes so that the sand doesn't cover the entire house.

I have dirty handprints on the wall beside his bedroom door.

I have hugs and kisses every night before bed.

And most of all I have a heart full of love and laughter.

week 9

Well I didn't lose that much this week, only .4 pounds. But it brings me to a total of 11 pounds! WOOT

Game Night

I had volleyball duty Friday night. My last sports duty that I have to do. (YAY!) I told Brandon Thursday night that we would be going to the game on Friday night. He asked "Can I take a shirt for all the guys to sign?" I told him, "Well, it is volleyball. The players are all girls." He got a smile on his face and said, "EVEN BETTER!!!"

Week 8

I was very happy and surprised this week when I stepped on the scale. I had a few days this week that I felt I didn't eat as well as I should. So when I lost 1.6 pounds I was pleasantly surprised.

Total weight loss is now 10.6 pounds.

9.11.01

I hope you will take just a moment today to remember the lives lost on that horrible day in September of 2001. The innocent lives on the 4 planes. The innocent lives in the WTC and the Pentagon. The children that lost mothers, fathers, grandparents, aunts and uncles. The families left with empty plates at the dinner table.

Never, never, never, never, never, never, never, never, never, never FORGET.

Week 7

Wow I have been counting points on the weight watchers program for 7 weeks now. I have lost weight for 6 of those weeks and maintained one week. This week I lost 1.0 pounds. :)

That brings me to a total of 9 pounds loss. I still have quite a way to go. But I know I can do it!!!

World Map

If you scroll down to the very bottom of my blog, you will find a world map. It is brightly colored and has little purple hearts on it. This map shows me the location of those who stop by to read my blog. I think it is very cool because I have had people from all over the world stop in and read about my silly thoughts and ideas.I find myself thinking about who these people are, well some of them I know, and how in the world did they click on MY blog.

And to these people I would like to say,"Take off your shoes and stay a while. Leave a comment or two. Maybe we will be friends. (And in perfect southern) Hey Y'all!!!"

Busy weekend

First of all, Cousin Melissa (as Brandon now calls her) came home with her new 4 month old Golden Doodle. He is huge and NEVER still. He is a cross between a golden retriever and a standard poodle. He is a pretty cool pup!!

Brandon had a great time with Cousin Melissa and wanted a "cool" picture taken with her. I think he succeeded. :)

This afternoon Brandon worked on his first project of 3rd grade. He had to make a model of an area in a community and tell what type of community you would find it. Here is his paragraph.

"My project is a model of a city park. A city park is in a suburban area. You can play in a sandbox at the park. You can slide at the park. It is a place to play. You can go to the park with your family and your friends. I like to go to the city park because it is fun and joyful."

**Mother beams proudly**

Second Life is cool because....

anything is possible.

Life with Cat and Dog

Here is a common picture around our house right now. If Grayson even looks at the water bowl, Bobba puts up the "Bobba Barrier" to protect her food dish. Bobba is very good at this and I am certain that she has an extra sense to know when Grayson is getting too close to the food dish. She can stand guard at the drop of a hat, even if I think she is asleep, she is ready to defend her food. Bobba stands guard and eventually Grayson walks on up and gets all the water he wants.

Life with two pets is never boring.

6th week

I weighed in this morning and found that I lost .8 pounds this week. YAY me!!! That puts me at a total of 8.0 pounds. :)

I only have about 11 more to meet my goal. Once I hit that target I will concentrate on maintaining my weight again. I was able to keep it off for a few years the last time I lost weight and I am sure I can do the same this time. :)

My Handy Dandy Compact Camera

My little camera came in quite handy today.

First of all, someone found a tiny turtle at school and asked me to come rescue it. Turns out to be a baby aligator snapping turtle. Such a cute little fella.

Then Brandon had testing at Karate for his second stripe. :)

Then on the way home, this big guy was in the road. I tried to coax him back into the stream but I didn't want to get to close to his snapper.

I did it!!!!

Well I did two things really. I finally found a cat that I thought would be a good addition for our family and I got a new camera. :)

I got the new camera bug from Sandy. Now I have a nice compact camera that I can take anywhere and get a 10 pixel pic when ever the mood strikes me. It has rained all week end so I have been taking pics of the new cat. He is so abliging. :)
The cat, Grayson, has settled in nice. He is a year old and so laid back. Even the five pounds of canine fury that Bobba is doesn't rattle his cage. I think it helps that he is twice her size. I think I made the right choice with him. :)

latest weigh in

I weighed in this morning and had a small loss of only .4 pounds, but loss is loss! :)

So now I am at a total of 7.2 pounds and still headed towards my goal. :)

Another night at Karate lessons

Tonight in Karate class, the kids were learning to push through tiredness and fatigue and still be strong and focused. The teachers basically wore them out. Kick after kick, punch after punch, running in between, frog jumps, duck walks, bear walks, push ups, jumping jacks, you name it they did it.

After they got the kids all sweaty and worn out, they set up an obstacle course. At the end of the course a pad was set up for kicks. They had to kick at the pad, barely touch it, but not knock it over. If it got knocked over, everyone had to do push ups. They must have done atleast 50 push ups if not more.

On the way home, Brandon was talking non-stop about how much fun it was. He said, "Mom, I did a lot of push ups. I am getting stronger but I STILL have all this skinnyness."

Conversation in the Car

"Brandon, we need to stop at Ingles to get some groceries."

"Mom, can I get a lunchable. We only had 3 things for lunch today."

"Only 3 things? What did you have?"

"I had cornbread, milk and macaronni with little hams. And that is all they had at lunch today."

"Really? no fruit? no vegetables?"

"Well they had those brown beans I like but it had a nasty flavor on it. And they had those vienna orangeses*. You know I don't like those."


*translation vienna orangeses = mandarin oranges

Another trip inside Brandon's mind

Each time we go into the town of Griffin, we have to pass the county correctional institution. Brandon understands what the building is and why people go there. But he can not understand why when we pass the buildings the prisoners are allowed to play basketball and volleyball. Each and everytime he sees them outside playing he goes into a frenzy of questions. Much like these: "Mom, if they broke the rules that means they should lose priviledges(yes he even used this word). Why do they get to go outside and play fun games? Do they have TV? If they do they shouldn't. They broke the rules. It should be a punishment not play time.

I have to admit he poses some pretty good questions. I am constantly amazed at the thought he puts into his ideas. Maybe he was just born a politician?

second thoughts

After thinking through my weight loss or lack there of this past week I started getting a feeling of foul play. My scale has lots of buttons. I live with a button pusher.

Sure enough I examined my scale and it was set to show the last recorded weight which would be what I weighed the week before. So I reset the scale and sure enough I have lost some weight this week.

I lost 1.2 pounds bringing me to a total of 6.8 pounds!

woot!!

Another week maintained

Well I was a little disappointed this morning when I weighed in. I did not lose but did not gain either. I think it is because I have not been drinking enough water. With school starting and being on a schedule where I can't go to the bathroom on a whim, I was a little afraid to drink too much water.

So now I know I need to buck it up and just do it. My body will adjust to my schedule and I will be ok.

So total weight lost 5.6 pounds.

Karate lessons

I love to watch Brandon's karate classes. They are so full of action and fun. I find myself laughing at the cute things they are doing or amazed at the incredible things they are learning to do.

Tuesday's class had two groups, a large orange and gold belt group and Brandon's small white belt group. They were split up to learn different techniques. In Brandon's group there were 3 boys all about 8 years old. They were working hard on their form and their teacher asked them to "take a knee" so he could talk to him.

I looked over and the teacher was looking down at the 3 small boys with a grin on his face. All three boys were standing on one foot and holding their right knee in their right hand. None of them understood that he meant to kneel down to listen. It was just a priceless picture. Too bad I didn't have my camera.

Another moment looking into Brandon's mind

The other day Brandon wanted to eat lunch with Grandmom (we are currently living in the basement apartment). So upstairs he went to hang out with her and eat what must be the best tasting bologna anywhere on the planet. As they sat and enjoyed each others company, he started to get a little pensive.

He said, "Grandmom...(insert long pause)...you know when you and Granddad....(insert another long pause)...Well I don't want to say this but.....When you and Granddad are in heaven with God, me and mom can just go upstairs or downstairs whenever we want."

Mom got such a kick out of that. He didn't want to talk about them dying but found a way to say it in a softer form. It is amazing how soon kids can pick up on things like that. I am lucky that he is such a caring little human.

figuring things out

When I picked Brandon up from school on Friday, he asked if I was proud of him for going all week (3 days) without getting in trouble. I, of course, was and am very proud of this accomplishment. (You see it is the first time and a personal record for Brandon.) I told him I was extremely proud of him and he told me this:

"Mom, now that I am 8 years old I finally have it all figured out. I like Ms. Golden, she is nice, and I want to keep her that way."

Man, I wish I could have figured it all out at age 8.

Another Brandonism

Our morning rides to school are usually very interesting. I didn't realize how much fun they were until we started back to school on Wednesday of this week. Yesterday on the way to work and school, the radio was buzzing of a story about Georgia going to a 4 day school week. There were debates about how it could be a good thing or bad just depending on how you are looking at it. Personally, I don't think it would work well, especially with our younger students.

Anyway, Brandon was listening intently in the back seat. I could tell his little mind was wrapping around this 4 day school week idea. Finally, he spoke up, "Mom what is the big deal? We already have 3 day school weeks."

A successful week

I weighed in this morning and I have lost another 1.8 pounds. YAY me!!!

I now have lost a total of 5.6 pounds and if I keep it up I will slowly but surely reach my goal!!! :)

Weigh In!!!

Well this week I wasn't quite as successful. I didn't really expect to be. I had an old friend come in to town that I haven't seen in ages and we went to eat mexican food. Yes I knew it was a mistake but it was worth it.

So at any rate, I did not lose any weight at all this week but maintained my last weigh in and am still at a total of 3.8 pounds loss.

I expect next week to be better since I started back to work and I refuse to cheat this time. :)

First Official Weigh In

I am not going to the regular meetings at Weightwatchers, so I am trying to do things as much like they do it at home. I started counting points last Friday. It has been a week and is now time for my official Weigh in.

And the results are......

In my first week I was able to drop 3.8 pounds!!!!

YAY ME!!!!

No more foolin around

After seeing myself in pictures taken on my vacation, I decided I had to get serious about what I eat. So I started counting points again. For those of you familiar with Weight Watchers, you know exactly what I mean. I started on Friday of last week and I have been religiously counting points and writing them down in my log. I have kept up with everything.

There is just one problem. I tend to go over board a bit. I find the foods with the least points and the most flavor and I make them my target. That sounds wonderful doesn't it. The problem lies in this, I can't eat that much food. I put myself on this diet then I choose foods that are really good for me, but getting them to add up to 22 points right now is almost torture some days. I am sure I will get through it.

I haven't even made it through the first week yet and I have already lost 2 pounds. Yay me!! So hopefully the next time you see me there will be less of me to see. :)

Trip Story Number One

The first place we went to after leaving Union Station was the Capitol Building. It was only a few blocks away and Brandon was already at his top excitement levels. As we got closer to the Capitol we noticed more and more security and police officers. When we made it there, the Capitol was surrounded with chains and fences. I wasn't sure if we were going to be able to get close or not. Brandon noticed that we were concerned about how far we could go up the steps. He looked up at me and said, "ok Ma."

He looked around at the police officers, there were probably about 6. Brandon throws his arms up with his hands in the air. He yells out, "Sirs, Policemen, Sirs, We are not here to do any harm. We just want to go up the stairs. Is that ok?"

The police officers laughed and told him that it would be fine for us to walk up the stairs to the chains. Brandon thanked them and we went up the stairs for a few pictures.

Photo Commentary by Brandon

Here are some of the funny things Brandon said about our pics from the trip.

"Ma (as my name has been shortened) We don't EVEN have to wear a seat belt on a train!!!"

"and we didn't even get shot. Cool huh?"

"She rode the elevator before, so we were safe."

"That isn't really him. He's dead and not that big."

"They should have let the animals live. It made me sad."

"That is me with a dead guy. He died a long time ago."

Update

It has been a tense couple of weeks for me. With the end of school, which is always hectic, and with the news that my Mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. School is finally out (yay). Which left us with the real threat that Mom might have a terrible battle to face.

She had her surgery on June 5th. The doctors seemed to think that everything went well, and that they were able to get all of the cancer out of her body. But we still had to wait a week to find out for sure. Mom was tired but all in all she was recuperating very well. She went back to the doctor and she got the "all clear" that we were hoping for. She will still need to have some radiation treatments. They will be localized and hopefully not too draining on her health with side effects.

With all that said I must say this to all you women out there that read this, few as it may be. Mom's battle was short and victorious. But it was all due to early detection. In the past, she has found lumps in her breast that have all be benign. We figured this one would be too. But no it was cancer. Go get your check ups. Have your mammograms done. Be proactive.

Find someone that is active in Relay for Life. Donate money or time. Become active in educating others that cancer can be beaten.

Dentists!!!!

Brandon had a cavity when we went for our cleaning last week. So we had an appointment today to get that filled. Ever since the last visit I have gotten a million questions about what the dentist was going to do today. I do believe he is a worry wart.

This morning he got up and the first thing out of his mouth was, "Is it going to hurt when the dentist fixes my tooth?"

I tried to keep his mind off of it until we were able to get in the car and leave. I told him to bring a book to read and that kept him occupied for a bit. When we got in the office, he went straight up to the desk and started with his questions. The receptionists just smiled and tried to answer as many as possible. The most asked questions were these: "Will it hurt? Is it going to be numb? Will I feel it? Will it take long? Am I going to bleed?"

So they call us back. The questions started again. "What are you going to do to me? Why do I have to sit over here? Are you going give me a shot? What is that? Does it hurt? What does that do? Why do you want to hurt me? How long will this take? I don't like that blue light. I don't want to be numb."

The nurse was great. She smiled and explained it all in between giggles. He asked her, "Did you ever have to do this? Did it hurt you? Did you cry?" On and on the questions went.

Then enters Dr. David. All the same questions popped up again. He answered them gently and thoroughly. Each time he reached for a new tool Brandon would pop up out of the seat. "What is that for?" Each time Dr. David would gently get him back in the seat and explain what was going on. If he didn't explain and just started using a new tool, Brandon would scream "oooowwwww" and try to sit back up. But Dr.David was quick and would save the day with an explanation or a quick tool change.

As I watched Brandon, I got so tickled. I wish I had a video camera to capture the moment. His right arm was stiff and in the air with his hand in the form of what looked to be the claw of the crypt keeper. Both his legs were straight out and his toes in the most perfect ballet point ever. Poor little soul was just tormented by the dentist.

All in all this scene lasted only about 20 minutes. Although to Brandon, it probably seemed like a lifetime.

The Beginning of Summer

Summer is off to a scorching start in Georgia. It is only the beginning of June and we already are reaching temperatures in the high 90's. So what have we done about the heat? Well like every summer we try to beat it or stay out of it.

We have started our summer schedule. I hope not only will this help keep Brandon busy but it will also help me get in a little better shape.

Monday is Library day. The local public libraries around here always have a summer reading program. Every Monday they have a guest speaker and usually it is a fun time. Brandon has discovered Star Wars novels and Comic Books. Brandon will also be starting Karate lessons on Monday nights. :)

Tuesday is Skating day. We can go skating from 10 to 2. It is usually fun and not that expensive. Plus a great way to stay in shape.

Wednesday is pool day. Our town has a great community pool. We can swim all day for a buck fifty. Can't beat those prices and it is a great place for Brandon to meet new friends and just have a great time.

Thursday is movie day. Our theater has a free showing of a movie every Tuesday and Thursday morning. The kids can buy popcorn and a drink for 2 bucks. Then if we feel like it we can go swimming again.

Friday is go to an interesting place day. Georgia has a lot to offer in State Parks. We can also go to some really great places that are completely free but have great hiking trails and wonderful places for a pic nic lunch.

Summer is busy but fun!!! Come hang out with us! :)

pet peeves

Oh come on, we all have pet peeves. Just sometimes I get to wondering why it bugs me so much. Like this one. There is a lady I know that everytime I see her she will ask, "How is Amy doing?" Each time I have to bite my tongue to keep from saying, "Amy who."

I have no idea why it bugs me so bad. I don't even want to talk to her because she refers to me as some entity that isn't right in front of her face. How hard is it to say, " How are you?"

uuugggghhhhhh

Why is it that the day AFTER you get everything cleaned up in the house is the day that 15 minutes looking for your CAR KEYS????????

Indiana Jones

I went to see the new Indiana Jones movie today. I couldn't wait for it to come out, and I wasn't disappointed. All the major factors were there: Harrison Ford,action, mystery, fedora, Harrison Ford,treason, whip, romance, Harrison Ford, enemies, plot twists, chases on cliffs and did I mention, Harrison Ford.

I think he is the perfect Indiana although he wasn't the first choice for the roll. Another favorite of mine, Tom Selleck, was the preferred actor, but he had just taken on Magnum PI. He passed on the Indiana part. Even though I adore Tom I am not sure the Indiana Jones movies would have been as popular and successful with him in the lead role.

Harrison Ford really brought Indiana to life. Indiana is the perfect non-super power hero. He has so much courage and integrity, but at the same time he is so flawed. Even in his (sorry Harrison) older age, he still comes across as a sexy, strong, intelligent, lovable character.

There were little things that I enjoyed seeing were still part of the Indiana Jones traditions. The beginning of the movie started out with the Paramount symbol that went right into the movie. If you are a big fan, you will understand what I mean with that. I didn't catch a Star Wars reference but I am sure it was there. When I get the movie on DVD, I am sure I will find that as well.

Anyway I LOVED the movie, and recommend that you go see it. Just sit back and enjoy the ride!

Life's curves

You know, I always feel that life is a journey. Many times I would love to have one of those journeys like you take on I-20 out of Atlanta to Texas. It is a straight shot. You know exactly where you are going and how far it is because the road is straight and stretched out before you. Although that can be nice at times, my most memorable trips are those that I have to guess what is around the next corner. I am constantly amazed, scared, or happy about what I see around the bend.

My life lately has been full of turns and crooks. Sharp turns with low visibility like I am driving in a fog. Work has been stressful, almost unbearable, and one of my biggest hurdles for the past 3 weeks or so. Home hasn't been a piece of cake either, although it has been the happiest place for Brandon and me for quite sometime now.

As I was working late last night on one of those curves in the fog, I received a call that seemed like an abrupt dead end without a warning sign. My mom had a biopsy done on Tuesday. The doctor seemed to think everything was fine, but when we got the results yesterday the 15% chance turned to a 100% chance of Cancer. I feel now like I am driving on an old road with no lines, rain and fog. The doctor thinks it is in the very early stages and that the cancer is completely beatable. But he also thought on Tuesday that it was just a calcium deposit.

I am scared. Not really for myself, but for my Mom and Dad. I want to be the support they need. But right now my road already seems so crooked and foggy. I know that God doesn't give us more than we can handle and that what doesn't kill us makes us stronger. But why is it that in these times of trials, we feel so weak.

Might have been....

This time every year I get into a "what might have been" little moment. I teach life science to 7th graders and this is the time of year that we do the reproductive system. The kids call it "sex ed." We have little models of the development of the human fetus. The kids love to see the different stages of how they actually looked and how quickly we go from some time of alien looking creature to a sweet little baby. They are constantly amazed at how tiny they were and how quickly they grew.

So how does that get me in the "might have been's?" I have been through quite a few miscarriages. There is one model that is actual size of the stage of development that most of my children made it to. So I find myself thinking about how things would be different if these little creatures had actually been able to grow and develop like they should have. Were they girls? Were they boys? What would they look like and how would they behave? All just speculation because it wasn't meant to be.

I don't really wish that my life was any different. I can't imagine what my nerves would be like with 5 or 6 kids and I can NOT imagine life without my adopted son. But sometimes the "What if's" and the "could have been's" enter my mind. And I realize I have everything I need and most things I want. Life is good. Life is happy. And I wouldn't change anything because if I could change it I would not be the person I am right now. And I like that person.

RODEO!!

One of our favorite activities is going to the GA High School Rodeo Association rodeos. Saturday was the final rodeo of the regular season so we drove over to Forsyth to watch the show. They always start out with a tribute to the troops and the American flag. Followed by a prayer and the singing of the National Anthem by one of the high school kids. The picture above was taken just before the anthem was sung. Brandon took his hat off and put it across his chest on his own and he was shocked that other kids weren't doing the same. And I was shocked that the kids parents didn't remind them.

After the opening ceremonies, the true events start. We didn't know any of the kids that were riding but it didn't matter anyway. We cheered for them all. They compete in every thing from bull riding to barrel racing. Brandon always enjoys the clown and like always made friends with him. He will tell you that the clown's name is really John. We stayed for the whole show, right down to the bull riders which always go last. Two fellas even made it to the 8 second buzzer.

Human nature?

Ok many of you might laugh at what I am about to blog about, and that is ok. I know that if you are laughing then you most likely have done the exact same thing so you know what I mean. Others may just laugh because it is simply silly. That is ok too.

A few mornings ago I got up a little late and had to rush around to get ready for work. In my hurriedness I put my panties on inside out. Now that isn't really a bad thing nor is it uncommon. (Men I know it would be for you, but panties are different.) But what I found to be interesting is the reaction I had when I noticed that my panties were on inside out. I went to the bathroom a few times at school but did not notice. I noticed once I got home.

My reaction? Well I was embarrassed. Now why in the world would I be embarrassed over something that NO ONE else could see or even know about (well until I blogged about it). My face even turned red because I had my panties on inside out. Then it turned to giggles because I recognized the absurdness of my embarrassment. It wasn't like I had been to the Dr., been in an accident, or any other reason our mothers always told us to wear clean underwear. And besides, mine were clean, just inside out.

I dunno, maybe I am just weird. LOL

allergies ~ACK~

Tis the wonderful time for my allergies to go bonkers. The wonderful pine pollen of Ga has never really bothered me that much, maybe a sneeze or two when I go outside. It is the privet hedge that has me in a tizzy right now. My nose is red and raw from sneezing and blowing. My eyes are as red as a drug addicts. I am coughing like a smoker. Wheezing as I go, fighting for a breath of good oxygen. My voice is leaving me and I basically feel like crap.

Last night, I was feeling horrible. Needing sleep more than ever, since sleeping with a cough is nearly impossible. Brandon went up to see Grandmom. He says to Grandmom, "I think I will stay up here for a while Grandmom. Mom needs to get control of her sickness." Sounds like I am an alcoholic, druggie or something like that. Hopefully it will be over soon and I can get back to normal, well semi-normal life. :)

really sick...

Brandon: Mom I was really sick this weekend

Mom: You were? what was wrong?

Brandon: I had a really high fever.

Mom: You did? How high was it?

Brandon: It was 180 degrees.

Mom: wow that is really high, but you would be dead if it got that high.

Brandon: well ok, it was 140 then.

Old Movies

I came across a copy of Raising Arizona the other day at Wal Mart. I snatched it up and couldn't wait to revisit this old comedy. I had forgotten how funny that movie is. I found myself laughing out loud and rewinding certain scenes so I could laugh again.

Take some time and revisit and old movie from your past. You might be surprised at how much you will laugh.

Money or Trust

I read another blog that presents the question: Would you rather have a partner with money or a partner you can trust.

There is no question, Trust is much more important than money could ever be. Without trust money is useless. Without trust all faith is lost. Without trust a relationship can never take place.

Trust is gained through experiences. It is hard to trust someone that you have never met before, that you don't know anything about. Experiences with someone builds trust with them. Yet, all that trust can disappear with only one lie. But in my experience, one lie leads to more lies. Each lie revealed opens another painful wound. Wounds that may never heal all the way.

All I can hope now is that I will find the faith to trust others, and believe that tomorrow will bring a better day.

another funny

Brandon and I stopped at a Roses store on the way home from school the other day. It is kind of like a Big Lots kind of store, sometimes you can find some really good buys there. I was browsing through the clothes after finding a Star Wars t-shirt for Brandon. He would ask me, "Mom do you like this?" I either did or didn't and we would move on to the next rack.

"Hey, Mom, well nevermind."

"What is it?"

"Well, I was going to show you this but it is 'Grandmom Clothes.' You won't like them."

"Oh, well what makes them Grandmom Clothes?"

"Well, see they have flowers all over the pants and stuff."

I actually did think the outfit was cute, but wasn't about to buy Grandmom Clothes!

Student views

I had a writing assignment for my students yesterday. It was a persuasive letter to the principal. It was to give the administration ideas or suggestions on how to improve student behavior. Most of my students wrote about things like being able to drink soda's,getting snacks and other things that seventh graders think are important.But I had one student that had a really good idea. Her idea was this: if a student gets suspended or is in in school suspension during the school year, then that student should have to come to a mandatory summer school where anger management and social skills would be taught.

I thought "wow that is a really good suggestion." I have planned to talk to the principal about the suggestion and thought it would be good to let the student meet with her as well. Who knows, maybe she will start a new trend in discipline.

Sweet Innocence

I had to go to Wal-Mart, again, to get some toilet paper, mascara and stuff like that. When we got home, Brandon noticed the make-up that I had purchased.

"Mom, why do buy make-up?"

"Well I suppose, I just like to make myself look nice when I go out."

"Mom, I guess it is a girl thing."

"Yeah I suppose so."

"But girls are pretty even when they don't wear make-up. You are too, Mom."

He is only eight. I find his sincerity, honesty, and innocence to be so endearing. I hope and pray that he will keep these qualities throughout his life. When I look at him, I see how loving and caring he is. Like a big ole heart with arms, legs, and a smile.

I love you Brandon!!

Classic Jazz Lives on!

Yesterday I bought a Michael Buble CD. I was excited to hear it and finally have it in my car for my drives back and forth to work. So I got the CD out and promptly put it in my player. The song “Fever” started playing and I heard some snapping in the back seat. I looked back and Brandon was snapping and swaying with the music. He says “Mom, What is this music? I like this, it has….rhythm.”

It was the first thing he asked for in the car on the way to school today. The start of a new “Rat Pack” maybe?

GROSS!!!!!

This TOTALLY makes me gag!

Well, I don't love it....

Sandy's last blog reminded me of one of the cute endearing things that Brandon used to say. He was 4 when he moved in with me and I had to learn all about the foods he liked. Likewise, he had to learn about new foods and what I like to cook (giggles). So as we learned one another and our tastes, we were constantly trying new things together. He likes potato salad which is NOT one of my favorite things. But I did find a recipe that I do like so that we are both happy.

At each meal, Brandon would be faced with something new or different for a while anyway. He was never really reluctant to try things but his answer was usually the same. He would try a little bite, think about the taste and feel in his mouth, and say one of two things. He either liked it and would finish it up or he would look at me and say,

"Well, I don't LOVE it."

But the funniest thing would be that he would still eat it!
He has changed a little now. He will still try practically everything, but if he doesn't like it he won't eat it. I don't blame him. I don't like to eat foods that don't taste good to me either.

The Planet Earth

This weekend I went to Walmart and found the complete series of "The Planet Earth" made by the BBC for sale. Well I had to have it, being the science geek that I am. Brandon and I spent the weekend oooooing and ahhhhhhing over caves, cute baby animals, desert elephants, moutains and giant trees. I was impressed at the artful way the documentaries were done and I am very excited to show these to my students next year.

Brandon kept blurting out "Mom, look at that! Mom quick look! Mom, that is so cute!"
The cutest thing he said was "Mom, why do they keep eating the babies? They should eat the bigger ones. They aren't nearly as cute as the babies."

Standardized Testing

This week in Georgia we are giving the CRCT standardized test. It means for two hours everyday we submit our students to multiple choice testing. I don't have good things to say about this process but I do have a cute Brandon story about it.

I asked him on Monday how testing was going. He said "That test is pretty hard, but I am pretty sure I got them ALL right."

I love his optimistic view. I am also glad that he has such an good self image. He never ceases to amaze me.

Pic of the Day

We went out to look at the new babies today when we got home. I was able to catch this adorable moment. Ok, everyone together now....

AHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Memories

I found this picture when I was looking for a picture to add to the last blog I wrote. Brandon had been living with me for exactly one year when this picture was taken. It has now been over 4 years and I still can't get over how much I love him. He has been an incredible addition to my life and one that changed my life forever. Because of him, I laugh more, smile more, live more. I can not imagine life without him.

I LOVE YOU!!!!

The fun of learning to read

Learning to read has not been Brandon's favorite thing in the world. But lately he has found how fun it is to know the words around him and know what is going on.

So we go to Sonic for a milkshake. Brandon speaks up from the back seat, "Happy whore everyday 2 minus 4. Mom, what does that mean?" I was shocked for a second, but then asked "where do you see that?" "It is on my cup, Mom. Does yours say that too?"

I look at my cup and sure enough it says "Happy Hour Everyday 2-4pm." I corrected his reading mistake and he was pleased as punch that he read almost every word right.

It's a Boy!!!

Well the long awaited time has come, and we now have one more baby boy. He was born early this morning. I went out to see him after church this morning and he came right up to me. What a sweetie!!